Tuesday, March 6, 2007
Okayyy, got back my results.
Some of them.
Mixed emotions;
HAPPY! 'Cause I Passed most of the subjects! :D
Great improvement, compared to last year.
And im seriously happy, cause it's a rather significant change/improvement of my grades :D
Alright, probably cause I'm starting to get serious this year HEHE.
Last year I Only passed ONE subject.
Seriously.
I learnt my mistake.
Filled with REGRETS last year. Never gonna repeat the same mistakes AGAIN.
So I'm trying hard to do well this year. Yeah. But I do need help!
Like I'm darnnnnn darnnnnnnnnnnnn~
SAD! 'Cause I failed my Chem =(
Pleaseeeee, that's the only subject i failed, so far =x
I hope it's the only n last subject i will fail.
I hope I will NOT RETAIN again.
K, i'm getting v paranoid over this, the thoughts of retaining, again.
Yeah. ESPECIALLY, during the moment. I got to know I failed my Chem.
Seriously seriously, I can't afford to fail.
You know when i got to know my chem results, the thoughts of retaining just keep going through my head.
Had the same feelings n felt history was repeating itself.
It was so totally like last year. Like i failedddd. The only difference was that i totally didnt even care, n carried on playing.
Uh-huhhh.
But now, I'm fearing like shiat, over one chem subject.
Ha-ha-ha.
And I just felt all the guilt and shame, of failing.
Esp. after hearing how great my classmates scored.
It's like I can't afford to fail. Or it will be like
"She retained, yet she failed."
And when you score well, it's like
"She retained. She learnt all these stuffs before. No surprise she scored."
Butbutbut, i totally didnt even bother to listen in class at all, last year.
So, it's like i'm learning everything, all over again.
Blahhhhhhh~
Like last year I got all my subjects failing.
With all the F9s, E8s, blabla.
Only passing ONE subject.
Uh-huh.
All the subject teachers had to see my parents, blabla.
And I was in a pretty good class.
I took Amaths, PUREPhysics, blabla.
It was darnnn stressful.
I totally gave up on it. And totally DIDNT CARE about my studies at all.
Uh-huh. And it got me retaining.
Partially due to bad influence of friends too.
K, my parents didn't like my good friends, then. Heh.
Anyway, is history. So, ahahah.
Overall, I'm happy! :D
Seriously;
With My results.
God has answered my prayers;
Changed me to who I am now. (:
But, I feel I'm backsliding.
Yessss, spiritually dry.
Someone bring me back to track, pls.
Andandand I'm just getting all stressedup with the results thingy.
Fearing for the midyear's examination.
Uh-huhhh.
Anyway, Byyyyeeeeeee~!
Pictures soooooon. =D
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